I think that people act using their rational and irrational thinking. I think over the course of time we come to be known them by a combination of both, but for those who know very little about us, the irrational tends to stick more often. I think this is because the crazy, irrational, fun things we do, are far more memorable than going to bed on time and getting all your work done. Yet a close friend or family member would recognize that you are studies and well rested.
One small thing that I do that acts against my own self interest is mountain unicycling. I do not do this often but when I do, there are no breaks on the unicycle and I am going down hill on a bumpy path. It would be so easy to hit a rock wrong, fall, and at the speed I would be going down these hills, break an arm. I don't consider myself a impulse actor, but I do love adrenaline. One example of this is that I love scaring myself. I took Exploring the Paranormal for Spring at Sage last year even though I am terrified of the super natural and I love watching scary movies. Liking these things does not make sense because they make me uncomfortable and scarred yet I continual do them because I get some sort of joy out of my own discomfort.
~Sahale

Teenage Angst

One of my biggest contradictions is that everything in my life, day, year, minute, afternoon can be going well yet I am in a terrible mood. I have a good life and we won our soccer game yet I am really irked that the person driving in front of me wont turn off their left blinker. In this case my mood contradicts my current surrounds and state. Even when everything is bright a cheery, I can be annoyed and sad. I can feel like this grump cat:

I normally try not to beat myself up about it and sum it up to teenage angst. And I have become pretty good at it but only when the recipient is that stranger who wont turn off his freaking turn signal. When I lash out against my friends or parents I am pretty hard on myself. They don't deserve to be yelled at and they do nothing but make my life pretty close to perfect. Getting mad for no apparent reason is my biggest and most often contradiction.

~Sahale